I lie myself a lot of things about me.
It sound a little stupid but I do it.
I know I really can not do a good design on my work.
Although a lot of people take their eyes on me I still know I am always stupid on design.
Hey! Do you guys know it.
After I start this collage life I havn't been happy for a long time.
Not only for the work I have to do but also the relationship between classmates.
I often ask myself why don't I break my brain ahd the hope from you.
A lot of time I really want to do a lot of crazy thing to change my life.
Just like traveling alone in semester or putting an end on my life.
But I know I ca't do that because you guys really expect me to do something spicial.
Interior Design is really a hard and wrong to me.
After I enter this collage till today I reallt konw it.
I can't do a good thing or a right thing which everybody can do.
Except design, the relationship is also let me be tired.
I arm myself to provide getting hurt again.
Now I know it's no use.
I still feel sorrow on my mind.
Okay! I know I think too much.
But in this time I can't feel warm in there.
The mask I make is too good to let you can't feel my really emotion now.
I don't now it's good or not.
I only know is that I have to keep it on life.
Does any port can let me take a break?
Sign!
The story I still have to keep walking alone.
Because I really don't let you around me get the garbage from my mind.
You have taken too many things in your heart.
So I don't want to let my boring things bother you.
Maybe one day I will get hard sick.